Today is my first day of school.
A little old for that, right?
Well, it is my first day of full time work in 15 years and it just happens to be at an elementary school.
I am nervous, excited, scared, happy and did I say nervous?
I know most of the staff already. I have actually worked in this school before part time. I have subbed there too. I am even good friends with some of the staff.
So why have I been dreaming about getting dressed in the morning, losing students, making lunch, being able to speak a clear sentence, forgetting to pick up my own kids, etc...
I have been lucky enough not to have had to work full time when my girls were little. Even though, in my eyes, they are still "little" they are not so little that I cannot work a school schedule. This way I can still drive them around all afternoon and evening and go to their games. We have the same days off and the summer "off". So what's to be nervous about?
I feel like I am adding a full time job to my full time job as a mom. Please do not chastise me for feeling this way. I already said that I was lucky enough to stay home with my girls for so long. Some moms stay home, some work, you have to do what's best or needed for your situation. All I am saying is that this is different for me and it's going to take some time to adjust.
So I will take my shower, hopefully not try on 8 different outfits, have breakfast and grab my new bag that has lots of fun pens, Sharpies and paper (thanks, MOM!) and head out the door with my head held high; off on my new adventure!