Enjoy spending the whole day alone?
I am not. It hasn't taken me years to realize this, I have pretty much known it all along. I am definitely a people person. Although, I do like being alone when I go to the bathroom, but I am talking extended periods of time here.
The girls are at the YMCA tonight at a special tween girls' night that includes swimming and a movie. It sounded fun to me, I almost wanted to stay. Since I am a good 25 minutes from home and have already driven up to Waltham and back today (2 hrs each way) I decided to stay put in Hyannis and wait the 2 1/2 hours to pick them up. I toyed with the idea of going to a rest. by myself and I couldn't do it. I ended up doing what I do best by myself and that is roaming the mall. Yup, me and the mall rats on a Friday night. Actually I only went to 2 stores and then made my way to Borders.
This is my baby step. I ordered tea and am sitting at a table with my computer. I feel as though I am sitting with my friends, though. I have caught up on blogs and email and haven't really felt like I was 'alone'. I feel a smallish bit cool having a lap top and all.
Maybe my next step will be going out for tea without my computer. (gasp). Maybe I will grow up by the time I am 60 and will be able to handle a dinner out by myself. (Nope, I can't even do breakfast or lunch at this point).
Do you think there is a 12 step program for not enjoying your own company? Is this something I need to bring up with my therapist? Any comments?